Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Have been so lazy in the past month to update. *sighs*

I’m gaining weight. I’m gaining weight. I’m gaining weight.

I know this is not new but how can I not gain weight after all the gatherings last week? Food is dominating my mind for the past few days and there’s nothing I could do to drive them out of my mind. A gourmet brochure on Bugis Junction came along with the I-Weekly this week and I had the sudden impulse to just head down there, specifically for the food. You know there’s something wrong when you just stared at the photos of the food for minutes, wondering how your taste buds would respond to them when those delicacies are delivered into your mouth.

I even set a quota like, ‘Okay, I’ll spend a maximum of twenty bucks on all the food I want. Shop smartly. Eat Smartly.’

Can you even understand the agony of salivating at the food before you but there’s no way you can eat them because they’re simply paper?

I’m desperate. I’m penniless. And I’m hungry right now.

WONDERFUL COMBINATION.

Okay, enough about the food. I’m not going to pine after the things that are miles away (mind you, they are in bugis).

My head is feeling considerably and literally lighter after I have snipped off a huge chunk of my revolting hair and straightened the remaining of it. I’ve got really dark hair, I realised, when my granny actually thought that I had dyed my hair black. I’m shining with pride *supernova rays spilling from my back*. I think it’s a little too short but then again, it’s only 80 dollars so I’m not complaining.

Next.

It’s the countdown to my college days and with everyday, my anxiety just grows. I kept thinking what if I don’t meet nice people there, what if I don’t meet up to expectation. These negative thoughts are getting cataclysmic. In the end, I just planned out the things I would do to while my Uni days away if I end up being a loner.

And believe it or not, it made me feel much much better. Always the unsociable and awkward Caroline.

But anyway, I think I will be so tired from all the travelling that I can’t be bothered with such trivial issues.

Third.

Driving lessons aren’t that bad if I remember to send a prayer up before they start, even though up till now I still can’t brake smoothly.

Fourth.

My Japanese lessons started again and there are no familiar faces in my class. T_T I dislike those smart alecks, like truly madly deeply do. And there are not one, not two, but three this time round. *slaps forehead*

Fifth.

I was actually in the valleys of my confidence after I received a message three days ago. You know how you could still feel like shit when there are dozens of compliments and only one criticism? I lingered on the one for too long and now that I come to think of it, it’s not even a criticism. It’s more like I was been given up on. But well, that’s her choice. And I’ve got enough backbone to not plead for her to give me another chance.

No hard feelings, really.

I think that’s pretty much all for now.

I’m looking forward to my breakfast tomorrow! I’m also looking forward to going to my Ah Quek’s store for noodles on Friday!

Ah nooo~~ Food again!